The last few weeks have been rough. It seems like it has been one thing after another. We found out that my 82 year old grandmother has breast cancer and will have surgery next week. We had some car trouble that brought an unexpected bill with it. Then, about 3 weeks ago, right after we accepted Minho’s referral, Mitchell began having some lower back pain and numbness in his leg. After numerous doctor visits, pain meds, and an MRI, we found out that he has to have surgery next Tuesday to repair a ruptured disk in his back. He will have to be out of work for 3-4 weeks. Of course, something like this never comes at a good time but this just seems like a really bad time because we really do not need the extra expense that comes with medical bills. We know that none of these things take the Lord by surprise and that He will provide what we need and we are continually reminding ourselves of that truth.
I’ve been working on turning my blog into a printable book so that I have a hard copy of all of my posts. While working on my posts from 2010, I came across another post of mine from March that was entitled “Obstacles.” I wrote that post when we were in the midst of Lukas’ adoption and having to change agencies. It was a discouraging time because we couldn’t figure out why we were having to start all over again with a new agency. It was such a setback and we were confused and discouraged. Here’s a portion of my post:
We went to choir practice last night but we were both a little aggravated and a lot discouraged. We were practicing a song that we're singing Sunday called "With God". Throughout the song you repeat the words "with God all things are possible." Yep, needed to hear that one! Mitchell looked at me after the song and said, "We hope so!" :) He was just kidding. We both know so, but sometimes it's hard not to wonder why things have to be so hard. I was reminded of a quote I saw last week that said,"If (correction: WHEN) you come up against obstacles or doubts during your adoption (either during the process or post-adoption), remember it's Satan that wants to keep children orphans. He's fighting like mad for them. You must fight harder. Get mad." I firmly believe that Satan is doing everything he can to throw obstacles in our way in hopes of discouraging us so that we'll give up on this process. I know the very last thing he wants is for a beautiful little Korean boy or girl to grow up in our home and learn about the love of Christ. He wants that baby to stay an orphan and never know the love of a mommy and daddy that loves him/her and loves God with all of their hearts. So...we're mad and even more determined to fight harder for this child that God has picked out for us. Please help us pray that we will stay strong and focused and not be deterred by these obstacles that keep popping up in our path.
Well, here we are again. The circumstances are a little different but there are still obstacles and things trying to discourage us. Last week after Mitchell’s truck had broken down and his back was killing him and he was just so discouraged, I hugged him and said, “You know why all this is happening, don’t you?” He knew. Once again, Satan is trying to throw everything he can at us to discourage us and fight us from bringing Minho home. We know that he cannot stand the fact that another orphan is becoming a son, a son that will grow up knowing and experiencing the love of Christ.
One of our favorite songs is “Whom Shall I Fear” by Chris Tomlin. We call it the angel army song around our house. Lukas can sing just about every word of it and plays it continually on my kindle. It is the most precious thing I’ve ever heard. Lately, the two of us have been singing it together at bedtime. He just sings to the top of his lungs and I do my best to join in but it’s hard not to just stop and listen to his sweet little voice singing praise to the God of Angel Armies.
Every time we sing it I’m reminded of the God who is fighting for us. The One who is fighting for Minho. Yes, we faced obstacles during the journey to Lukas and we had to fight against the one who did his best to keep him an orphan, never knowing “the One who reigns forever is a friend of mine.” And yet, here is our sweet boy, our son, singing and learning and experiencing the love of our wonderful Savior. So how could we not expect obstacles to come into our path on the journey to our next son? Of course, the enemy is fighting even harder this time to try and discourage us and keep us from trusting the Lord. He will not win. We are in fighting mode now and know that we can just be still because our God will fight for us! He is fighting for us and for that sweet baby boy waiting to join our family.